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April 16, 1999, It was a rainy and cold day. I prepared my clothes
for
the concert, which consisted of a White Teletubbie shirt, red PVC
pants, and
two different socks.
~Scooby Doo~ and ~The Cat in the Hat~
As I left my mother took a couple snap shots of me. Then I went to
catch
my ride in a big white van on the license plate it said HIGH ROLLER.
When we
all packed into this van there were 6 of us all ready to go. On the way
down
I drank a couple Jack D. pony bottles.
We arrived shortly after 7:00pm and walked down passing by a man
passing out
fliers for Jesus Saves, and a couple trying to sell shitty Manson
T-shirts.
When we finally got in the building people were all decked out in Black
and
the usual Manson Make up. I danced around playfully and waited for
everyone
to walk to the floor. I ran into a roadie who really liked my
Teletubbie
shirt, in which he wanted to know where he could get one too. I saw
from the
corner of my eye a guy with purple hair, and looked to be passing out
backstage passes. So my friends told me to follow him, which I did
till the
lights dimmed and I was just watching the stage at that point. I
really
wouldn't know what to say anyway to get backstage, so it was better I
didn't
ask. Nashville Pussy went on stage and boy did they get the crowd
pissed
off, I hadn't seen that many middle fingers since Rasputina played in
Erie
before Manson in 1997. I gave them the head Bangor symbol and
continued to
dance drunk like. When they finished and the lights came back up, I
moved
toward the front center row. I met some really interesting people, one
guy
had an American flag and we held it upside down together. There were
some
really interesting fans, that seemed to follow the tour. When the last
Pink
Floyd song finished the lights dimmed and the floor was lead by me
chanting
Manson, Manson, Manson. Then the curtain went up and the lights on the
cross
lighted up. Marilyn floated across the stage and the band played. I
was
squished and pushed around for about an hour and a half. I finally got
pulled out by my boyfriend. I told him that we need to go see Twiggy,
and so
we went right in front of the left amp. Marilyn came over and peered
down
and looked into my eyes, I put out my arms to him. He kept singing and
walked over again later, this time when no one was looking, just
Marilyn I
pulled down my right cup of my bra from under my Teletubbie shirt. My
shirt
was so tight you couldn't even tell I was flashing, Marilyn looked down
at me
in amazment. Then he began to sing Super Star SUpper FUck BAby. He kept
playing and he pulled down his pants revealing his ass, and pretended
to jerk
off the mic. He also rolled around on the stage in his G-string. He
said
some things to the crowd and told a story. Marilyn came back towards
me and
I stuck my tongue out, he let me sing into his mic. And then he bent
down
and pointed at me. He had this huge black body guard pointing at
people,
Marilyn shook his head no and pointed more violently. Finally he
pointed at
me half slapping me in the face with his hand. Then Marilyn shook his
head
yes, and the body guard pulled a triangle thing from his pocket and
folded it
and handed it to me. I was so shocked and I put it in my pocket so no
one
would take it from me. I moved back in the crowd and read it, it was a
pass
with MM initials and the body guards too. Marilyn did the podium
speech and
then Rock N roll Niger. The lights came up and it was all over, just
as fast
as it began. I told my friends what happened and then left them to
find my
bleacher seat. Then when I was sitting there I met some more Manson
fans and
got called with a few 50 people to go to the lounge. The rest of the
people
got radio revaluation backstage passes and left a different way. I was
sitting there chillin with some girls, listening to there stories. I
met
these two twins that bought me a pop and told me how they got
backstage. I
was so happy to get something to drink because no one would give you
anything. There was these two slutty looking chicks and they gave me
something that they called certs. I think it was a narcotic because my
heart
rate seemed to go crazy after about 45 mins. When the guy that I saw
earlier
came into the lounge with John 5 and Ginger, they just seemed to ignore
me
and the twins. When John 5 and Ginger left the guy with the purple
hair
(Jonathan) came and picked 9 of the best girls including the twins to
go back
stage. I wasn't picked, but then I heard Marilyn's voice on his body
guards
walky talky. Marilyn said don't forget the blonde haired girl. The
body
guard waved for me to come along also. As all of the girls waited to
be
escorted to the main room, I got the twins phone numbers. Jonathan
asked
what we were doing, we laughed (oh just getting numbers ). We walked
down a
hallway with all the twists and turns and finally came to the room. I
was
the last to walk in, watching Marilyn as he looked at me also. The
music in
the room was playing Nirvana, which was funny because I got so many
people
telling me that I looked like Courtney Love that night. I shook
Marilyn's
hand and told him my name, he seemed pleased to meet me. I made my way
to a
couch directly in front of his chair. I flopped down and relaxed
between two
girls. Pogo, Ginger, and John 5 were in the room also. The first
voice I
hear when the room became silent was Marilyn's. Marilyn was wearing a
black
T-shirt, red PVC pants, and a black leather coat.
Marilyn: So how do you feel?
Raven: (looks up) Shocked
Marilyn: Why are you shocked?
Raven: Because I have been a fan for so long.
Marilyn: Why Thank you
silence
Marilyn: I noticed your pants are like mine
Raven: I noticed too
Marilyn I noticed your shirt also
Raven: Really, I like the purple one he has a purse and is very famine
Marilyn gives a friendly look
silence again
Raven: I did want to say one thing to you
Marilyn: what is that?
Raven: good luck with Rose
(a chattering of female voices saying YEAH MARILYN)
Marilyn and I look at each thinking about how the other girls sounded
fake
and untrue.
The only other girls were the twins and they sat silent.
Marilyn offered everyone anything they wanted to drink.
I stood up listening to Jonathan trying to persuad the Twins to take a
shower
together because of the blood cannon.
Marilyn looked at me giggling and he smiled, half grinning trying to
hold
back.
John 5 came to where I was sitting and said (How old are you? ) I said
18
just knowing what was going through his mind. Then John 5 said No your
not.
I felt insulted and said Yes I'm, I was (stuttering) Septemberrrrrr
11thhh
1980. Marilyn looked up at me while I said my B-day, later I realized
it was
really close to Roses B-day Sept 5.
But anyway I went over and scanned what they had for refreshments, I
looked
at the beer and pop. I finally made my mind up on the Coke, and took
it
walked over to Gingerfish and talked and he signed my stomach.
Gingerfish
asked me if anyone else signed me yet. He kinda wanted to sign me
higher
because he pulled up my shirt pretty high. I giggled and said No one
But
you. He seemed pleased and talked to me some more, I asked him where
they
stayed in Pittsburgh. My boyfriend knew where they were staying and we
were
going to sneak in, but Ginger Fish told me that they are leaving
tonight so
that screwed that Idea. After a bit I walked into the boys bath room
and saw
Marilyn and the twins holding pictures. I said AWww you got pictures?
There
was some guy video taping (Paul) and he taped me, I might be on the
Mechanical Animals video backstage. Marilyn asked me if I would like
one
too. So I said yes and set my pop down, while Marilyn prompted Paul to
put
the video camera down and take a picture. I Leaned my head on Marilyn
and he
leaned against me. He put his arm around me and I did the same. I
noticed
that Marilyn had put on a pair of pink tinted shades to cover his eyes.
Marilyn, the twins, and I walked out of the room and into the main room
again. Then I stared into the wall and Marilyn kept walking by and
rubbing
my upper arm, it made me feel so much more comfortable too. Marilyn
kept
getting dumb questions being asked from the other girls, which he
seemed to
watch me the whole time make me move my eyebrow up to what they were
saying.
That was my way of saying many different things to him. I had to set
some
girls straight when they insulted Marilyn about his decorations on his
furniture.
They were the same girls that gave me the pills earlier.
The sluts said: Hey Marilyn this furniture looks like a grandmas.
Marilyn: shutters and walks away
Raven: It really doesn't look like a grandmas to me, my grandmas
furniture is
Yellow and Burlap.::walks away:::
Then I flop down on the floor and chill, eventually I stand up and walk
toward Marilyn after scanning the room for a long time.
Marilyn: What are you worried about?
Raven: I worried that my friends with leave without me, I live 1 hour
away
and I have no ride home.
Marilyn: walks away concerned, yet seems like he doesn't want me to
leave.
I watch Marilyn leave the room and walk around and get yelled at for
standing
by a security guard (Just wait he says)
I find a seat and these girls are looking at Photos, I fall to sleep.
Marilyn's body guard wakes me up and tell me (Hey you will have to pay
rent
to sleep there)
I look at him half pissed but I say to my self all well. John 5 came
up and
grabbed the crotch of my pants and yet again insults me by saying (Your
pants
are to baggy) followed by the degrading laughs of the certs sluts. I
felt
violated at that point.....
Then Jonathan and john 5 discuss something about the girls including me
and
something about the tour bus.
I listen but can't make it out, so I follow some of the girls and we
walk to
the out side lead right to the tour bus. I stand out side my boyfriend
in
plan view on the overpass. I wave and show my picture and egg on the
crowd.
I boarded the bus first with the twins, sitting down right in front of
Twiggy. Twiggy picks up a magazine and throws it saying what's this
doing
here? I believe the magazine was a playboy. Then he gets up and plays
with
the CD played remote trying to pick the best Busta Rhymes song that he
likes.
He looks at me and goes How's it going? I said fine, and smile. Then
he
plays with the remote and says How's it going again? I said fine
laughing,
and laid my head on the table. Then he says How's it going to all the
girls
and I laughed again. Twiggy gets the right song this time and opens
the door
separating the back from the front of the bus and leaves. I notice the
twins
sitting in front of me and w talk for a while, in which during this
time john
5 just got done with his make out session from out side with some
groupie and
was flirting with the other
girls on the bus. I then next thing you know Marilyn comes back up
front
gives me a cookie and the twins, then he asked me why didn't I leave
with my
friends. I told him they were just out side, and he nods. Then he
gives me
a toy guy and I played with it and shot Gingerfish's Toy Tigger from
Whinney
the Pooh. I shoot John 5 and the twins a couple times, and the twins
shot
me. I don't think he would have let me play with the gun if this was
after
the school shooting that every idiot blamed him for. Marilyn was asked
for
an auto graph and because of me he turned it down, I hope I don't run
into
the certs sluts any time soon. But anyway later on I was chillen and
Ginger
Fish sat beside me and talked to me about different things, then later
John 5
sat beside me and asked me stuff too. He yet again insulted me and
asked me
if my breast were real. I responded yes they are why? Then he said
want to
play tick tack toe, and wager any thing? I said no I will play but I
have
nothing to wager. Then he looked at me, I became sick by his presents,
then
I said to the twins want to play? He asked again about the wagering,
and I
told the twins to say No. Then we played And I lost and I said the
only
reason I lost because I let you win. John 5 says you lost because you
can't
beat me. Then I turned to the twins and felt a hand go up my shirt, it
was
John 5 and he was trying to undo my bra.
Raven: what are you doing? Upset
John5: Oh come on let me do this
Raven No, stop it
John5: Come on let me try to undo this with one hand
Raven NO, NO, NO
John5 stands up and walks away and disappears in the back of the bus.
I
stand up and say this is Fucked up and tell the twins lets get out of
here.
They were sitting with Ginger fish between them. I said This is fucked
up
again and stumbled off the tour bus and ran beside the crowd up into
the
overpass and into my boyfriends hands. He was shivering and handed me
his
coat like the gentleman he is. We walked around and left running into
the
High Roller.
( NOTE: To all you Manson Fans this story is shortened Just so that you
wouldn't be bored with all the details of my night) E-mail me for any
questions
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